random thoughts

I still dont know what im going to do with my life. After playing cash games today for 4 hours, I know without a doubt that I despise live poker with all my heart, which in turn makes me despise my life. I lost the $1500 tournament fairly quickly as I was card dead, had AA lose twice and and then had 12bbs in the sb, I made it 3.5 bbs to go, the bb called, the flop was AJ7, I pushes, the bb instacalls with 33...gg me. After that, I played 10/20 nl for 4.5 hours and made $1200. I pretty much played very abc. It was probably the most boring time in my life. I hate it with a passion. I then came back to the hotel and played 14 sngs before I couldnt play with some people, which put me in crazy tilt. It also didnt help that I was running horrible. Im pretty much tired of my life. Maybe I should become a rock star or something...

I got to laugh a lot playing live poker today. I do love watching these total idiots act all smug when they pull off an obvious bluff. They must they are awesome or something. I did watch a guy have 77 on a A73 board, get all in and lose to A3...about 10 hands later he had 88 on a AJ8 board and lost to AJ. Im glad to see that there people who run as bad as me...then again, I probably run worse than all of them. My bad luck rubbing off on everyone else, considering we are all losing out poker playing jobs. sorry for the bad beat guys. Its 8:50 right now and I cant play sngs...so I am either going to sit here and watch a movie or play diablo all night like the huge loser I am.