hmmmm

Well, nothing is going right here. I havent played much at all in the last few days...actually, I think I skipped the last 2 mtts although I did play todays $2500, which I lost, like normal. I am starting to accept the fact that maybe I dont run bad...maybe I just am bad. From what I understand, people can run bad for forever, but it usually doesnt happen. I fail to believe that god could let me run bad for this long, so the only answer is that i am horrible. That being said, I have no clue what I am going to do. I have like $3000 left here, which is enough to either play the 3k tomorrow, or 3 1k sats over the next few days to try to get in the main event. I am supposed to go back home to go on a cruise with my family though. I would normally just play the $3000 event, lose it, then go home, but I have met a very nice girl here that I really like a lot. We went out on a nice little days last night, which was fantastic. So....now I am rather torn between going back home or trying one last time to make a mil before I decide live tournaments just arent for me. Honestly, if I lose whatever I do here, I am done for a long long time. Im talking like I wont play a nother live mtt until I have at least a mil roll, which probably isnt going to happen any time soon because party is shutting down. All in all, I have a few fairly important decisions to make in the next few hours and right now. I usually know what the right play in life is, but right now I dont. I am very conflicted.