Biloxi/New Orleans trip report

Well, im sitting here waiting for my parents to get to their house so we can eat shrimp, so I figured it type this up while im waiting... I wasnt expecting much from Biloxi. It turned out to be a fairly relaxing trip though. I got there about a week ago (i dont remember when...my memory is horrible) with my friend Pete. We pretty much chilled around the casino and played a little live poker, which I dont really like. After he left, My friend Dave Anderson came along with a Christoph, a guy we met in Lake Tahoe. We had a pretty good time hanging out and eating the great Brizilian buffet. Dave did well in the tournaments although I did pretty horrible, like normal. I also got pwned hard online...Like to the point of almost bustoing my account. I have like $6000 left in there right now (which is basically nothing) so im going to be pulling some strings to get more money in there asap.


After the boring biloxi trip, I got the bright idea to go to the music festival in New Orleans. One of Daves favroite bands is Red Hot Chili Peppers and one of mine is My Chemical Romance, so we figured we check them out. We left mid day and followed TimKrank, a party sng player, and 2 of his friends to new orleans. I was under the impression we were going to our hotel to drop off our bags, but we went straight to the music festival. It took forever to find parking. We evnetually parked about a 30 minute walk from the entrance. My legs were tired by the time I got up there. We pretty much mingled around and laughed at the huge lines to get beer and food. The beer stands were amazing...They had these spicket people whose job was to do nothing but sit there and fill plastic cups full of beer as fast as they could. Thank god I dont have to do that for a living. The whole situation made me rather depressed with all humanity. Anyways, we eventually saw the chili peppers and they were great.

When we finally made it back to my car, I noticed my dome light was on...great...I was hoping my battery wasnt dead. It turns out either me or dave apparently left the doors unlucked and someone had ransacked my car. All my clothes were thrown out of my suitcase, as was Daves. I was hoping and praying they didnt touch the computers in the back. Dave was even more worred than I was, I think, as he had $5000 in his computer bag. I opened up the trunk to find Daves computer out of the bag and some of his stuff strown about my trunk...my computer was nowhere to be found...I was sad. Dave found his money still in his bag...smart theives...Once we got out wits back, Dave decided to see what was taken from the inside of the car...and he found my computer!! ShiiiipppHollaaaaa. It turns out that the only things they took was my crappy minpod (they left my videoipod...) daves ipod and my little thing that lets the ipod plug into the radio. That was the best bad beat i have ever taken. We drove to the hotel, checked in and went to meet up with the other guys again in the casino to eat and figure out plans from there. We all decided that we were tired, so we went to sleep.

Dave decided the next day that he wanted to talk around and see the city, so we did that in the morning. I wanted to see My Chemical Romance at 3:30, so I decided that we didnt have time to go back to the hotel, as we would be cutting it close. We ate at some fair to crappy bbq/fried food place in the french quarter...It was possabily the worst service I have ever had. We caught a cab and went back to the music festival. We played the playstation 3 for like 15 minutes while we waited. We got to the main stage and I noticed that they had some other band playing...At this festival, there was usually an hour break between bands on each stage. I then realized that we forgot to set back our clocks. We are so smart. We eventually saw the show, which was great. I wasnt expecting all that much, as I have heard some of MCRs live stuff and it was kinda crappy. Their show was very good though.

We taxied back to the hotel and slept until about 9:00 or so. Dave wanted to walk down burbon street, so we did that. We ate at the red fish grill, which was awesome. They had some the best soup I have ever tasted. It was some red fish soup that was kinda tomatoey. If you ever go there, get the 1-1-1 soup sampler...you wont be disappointed. After that, we walked down the street, listened to a 400 poind man sing in a bar, then went back to the room. We watched little miss sunshine, which is a very funny movie.

The next day...which is today, I drove home and here I am...I plan to go back into semiseculsion for the next month or so and relearn how to play sngs. My stars account is fairly low right now and neteller is taking its time to get my deposit in, so I think I am going to be forced to grind it out at the $114s-$225s for a few days, which isnt really that big of a problem.

I also plan on getting on theuberman sleep schedule, which is where you sleep 20 minutes at a time 6 times per day. I think I am going to go with sleeping at 3-7-11, as those seem to be the best times for pokering as well as most other things in life. Hopefully this all goes well, as I am not one to go without sleep very easily. I also think I left all my toiletries back in New Orleans, so im going to have to go buy new stuff tomorrow or whenever, which kinda sucks...I guess thats about it. I'll post again when something happens.

running horrible

actually, its worse than horrible...its the worst I have run in my life. I decided to count the coinflips in my last session tonight...I won 2 out of 25. I am fine with running poor, but this is starting to get stupid. I am pretty much done with $1100s at least until I start winning hands. I guess I am going to add $114s back in even though I am horrible at them..Actually, I take that back. Without a doubt, I am one of the top 10 sng players in the world...thats what pisses me off. I dont understand why God despises me enough to let the idiot lucksacks win every single hand. I really dont get it. I am seriously starting to wonder if Stars is somehow rigged...I know, it sounds dumb...but at this point, I see how it could be possible. I mean, I know if I am playing poorly or if I am running bad. This is just sick sick sick run bad. Its basically impossible to win a sng without winning a coin flip...and you cant win a sng when you only win 35% of your coinflips..So...what in the world am I going to do? I have no clue. I am probably going to grind the $114s-$335s pretty hard tomorrow. Im going to try to get in 300 or so and hope I make at least a little. If not, I dont know what I am going to do. I guess ill post these horrible horrible stars, although I might start to do it less often, as I dont want people I play with to know how im running, as they might tend to play differently at different times. Maybe ill just post numbers once a week or so.


1100s...94 played for -$17405 and -16.83% roi (yikes!)
555s...131 played for +$8565 and 11.78% roi
335s...173 played for +$7533 and 13.00% roi
225s...518 played for +$1953 and 1.68% roi
114s...205 played for -$3052 and -13.06% roi

1121 games played for a total profit of -$2406 and -0.64% roi

horrible day

Well, I decided I was going to get in a lot of sngs today, so I started playing around 2 pm. I pretty much lost every $1000 I played, which makes for a nice huge losing day. I was down $20,000 at one point but finished down $10,000 or so...I guess I should expect these things to happen. It was so so so so sick. I kept losing to 3 outers on the bubble. I guess you know the rant by now, as I give it every day. I also dont like using a broken mouse while 20 tabling. It doesnt work all that well. Dave is supposed to meet me sometime tonight but he hasnt called, so I dont know what the deal is. I played some plo mtt which was a really shallow event. After 20 minutes, your starting stack was now 15bbs. I had AQ98 2 suits in a 6 way limped pot on the button. It came AQ9 on the flop...some guy bet and I pushed. He called with a million straight draws and obviously hit. Pretty standard. Im unsure how long I am going to stay here now. I really have no desire to sit around and play mtts when I know I need to be putting in all the time I can online.

1100s...59 played for -$130 and -0.16% roi
555s...86 played for +$9540 and 16.85% roi
335s...125 played for $3408 profit and 7.12% roi
225s...366 played for $396 profit and 0.39% roi
114s...191 played for -$3441 and -15.8% roi

961 games played for a total profit of $9773 for 3.16% roi

All in all, a pretty awful day. Hopefully tomorrow isnt similar.

crazy day

Well, last night we bot to Biloxi, met up with some of Petes friends and hung around the poker room for a little while. For those who dont know me, I HATE standing around the poker room and watching people win insignificant sums of money...so I decided to play a $50+10 sng...Yes...20% rake. Ship it to the house. I obviously won that because the players were terrible. We then ate some buffet around 3 am then went to sleep. I guess I ate too much so I didnt sleep very soundly.

We woke up around 9:30 am and met up with some more of Petes friends as well as some people I know from Pensacola. I lasted the longest in the tourney, staying in for about 4 hours. They were fairly shallow, so I was gambooling it up. After the first hour, I had 4x the starting stack. After that, not much went right. for my bosto hand, for the few who actually care, I had AK in 2nd position. A guy that had like 10bbs made it 800 to go in 150/300. I made it 2400 out of my 5k stack and they folded to the button who instapushed...The first raiser folded and I called, as I had like 1/2 my chips in the pot. He had TT and I dont win coinflips, so I lost. So, it was a pretty standard mtt for me.

After that, we went to see Departed, which is a great movie. After that, we went to the great brizialian place here to eat and pretty much stuffed ourselves. After that, I came back to the room by myself with the intention of putting in a nice long session. I played about and went like 0/0/0/20, so I decided to break my mouse in a little tilt fit then to take a nap. I woke up around 11 pm and proceded to pwn hard. I got AA a bunch of times and when I didnt have Aa, I was cracking it. Good thing cause I was looking at and honestly, expecting a -10k day, but somehow I ended up a nice +3k. . Ok...total numbers...

1100s...59 played for +$8810 and 13.57% roi
555s...86 played for +$10860 and 22.75% roi
335s...125 played for $2634 profit and 6.29% roi
225s...366 played for $1656 profit and 1.86% roi
114s...191 played for -$3441 and -15.8% roi

856 games played for a total profit of $20519 for 7.74% roi

Also, the internet here is really really crappy. Like sometimes I cant go to websites at all, but pokerstars works fine all the time for some reason, so I guess it could be worse. Tomorrow is some ladies event at 11 am then at 8 pm, they are having a plo tourney, which ill almost for sure play. I'll hopefully put in a nice little session tomorrow during the day and maybe another one at night. Who knows.

very short and very good day

Ok...I know it is getting old, but I have to bitch about running poorly in the $1100s...Today I got heads up in 2 of them and both times I had like 12000 chips and they had 1500...the guys came back and won both times. It was sick. Besides that, I pwned pretty hard today. I ended the short session +$7739 which is quite nice/suprising. I am considering playing a bit more but I have to go to biloxi tonight sometime and I am going to visit my parents, as they just got back from a cruise and I havent seen them in about 3 weeks. Im going to be in Biloxi with some friends until Sun or Mon, at which time I will come back and hopefully continue to pwn the sngs. I also plan on getting in at least 50 per day while in Biloxi, although I will probably get in more, at the mtts start at 11 am and sngs dont run then...so I should be free most nights. So far, im keeping up with my "goal" of 100 games per day. I could have gotten in many many more but I am trying to have some sort of a life. Anyways, total numbers...

1100s...51 played for +$3425 and 6.12% roi
555s...80 played for +$11827 and 26.64% roi
335s...114 played for $2067 profit and 5.41% roi
225s...366 played for $3267 profit and 3.97% roi
114s...191 played for -$3441 and -15.8% roi

802 games played for a total profit of $17155 for 7.07% roi

All in all, im quite happy with the results. I have noticed that I tend to pay more attention to the bigger buyin games while I am playing only like 12-15 at a time. Im not sure if this changes my play but I will keep an eye on it. Once I get in 18-20 games though, it becomes too much to deal with. I wish I had some sort of stat of how I did when in 10 games vs 20. I'll try to figure out if I can do something like that. I guess I will posy again when something happens.

nice + day

I worked a pretty decent amount today, I think. I did pretty bad in the $1100s but pwned the $555s hard. I bubbled 4 $1100s in a row, which really sucks. During my second sessions of the day (usually out of 3 total sessions) I was down like $10,000 and was only going to be even if I won the last 2 $1100s I had left...so I won. :-) Im still fairly sure im a winner in the game though, so im going to keep playing them. After a week of playing hardcore on stars, ive finally reached the supernova level of their frequent player points thing. I think I am starting to figure out how to play with 15bbs fairly well. On party, you either had 10 or 20bbs where as on stars it is 7 or 15. Im sure this is probably what is giving a lot of the 2+2ers from party a hard time. I think I have it pretty much figured out though. I guess I am going to keep grinding tomorrow. Hopefully everything will go well.

1100s...41 played for -$4465 and -9.9% roi
555s...69 played for +$11790 and 30.79% roi
335s...105 played for $2814 profit and 8.0% roi
225s...334 played for $2718 profit and 3.62% roi
114s...191 played for -$3441 and -15.8% roi

740 games played for a total profit of $9416 for 4.37% roi

Still not THAT great but it could be much much worse. Also, just comparing these numbers to the numbers from a few days ago, it is clear that there are fairly big swings in sngs. Hopefully someone out there will learn to play well within their bankroll by comparing these stats. I guess I am off to sleep.

i win again!

I somehow didnt run all that bad today. I woke up around 1 pm, which is a little early for me. Im trying to force myself to get up around 11amish by Tue because I am going to play those live mtts in Biloxi. I have learned that the combination of being really tired and playing for smaller stakes makes me not play very well...so im going to make sure im well rested. So, like the smart person I am, I stayed away from $114s today. I didnt get to play in that many games at a time, but the results were nice, so I am happy. I ended up a nice $6099 over 100 or so games. Im also going to be smart and skip my late night session. Totals...

1100s...18 played for $3825 profit and 19.32% roi
555s...49 played for $1627 profit and 5.98% roi
335s...88 played for $3406 profit and 11.55% roi
225s...254 played for $2574 profit and 4.5% roi
114s...191 played for -$3441 and -15.8% roi

Total profit of $7991 for 5.14% roi


Im sitting here watching a sng video by one of the "pros" on cardrunners...This guy is constantly trying to find reasons to get involved with mid pair and thinks he can resteal any time anyone limps. It is very funny. Ive played with this guy a bit in the sngs on stars and thought he was the typical stars "regular." I am fairly glad to see that my suspiscions were right about these guys restealing every time I limp or make a normal raise. I guess that makes me want to fold even less. In a party $530, if you raise with JJ from 1st or second position, a guy in late position makes it like 3x your raise, id instafold JJ...on stars, its an instapush. Its funny how different the players are. Its like they think they are playing a mtt or something. Ohhh well. Im glad they are confused.

i run so bad

I should have been up sooooo much today. I was up $8000 at one point but instead got screwed royally for the rest of the night. In my last late night session, I dont think I won a hand. Every time I got all in, id flop a pair and the rigged ass pokerstars would ALWAYS run them off 2 pair. It happened 4 times in a row..it was sick. I also played some $1000 sngs today, as I was up some earlier and I have been running suuuuper bad in the $114s. I think I might be pushing a bit too much in them because people are calling me with all kinds of crap. Im sitting here finishing up my games and in a $555 5 handed I get QQ against A7...im down to 400 chips yay.... I seriously despise pokerstars. I wouldnt be the least big suprised if it was rigged. I kinda wish it was that way I would know that I am really not the worst running person in the world. I really cant descibe with words how disgusted I am right now. In my late night sessions, I always seem to do really bad. I might skip tomorrows. Ive also been typing random things in the chat box lately, which i am going to try to stop tomorrow. So im sitting here finishing up my last few games and I somehow win that $555 that I got 3 outered in a few minutes ago. The kids decided to walk me then let me steal blinds....its like the people are trying to lose. One of my friends said 10% roi was possible in the $1000s, which he caught a ton of flack for. I dont see why 20% isnt doable, at least in the $555s. There people are really the worst players I have seen in a long time...like since I played $11 party sngs. Anyways, I ended up + $4223 for the day. I guess I can take that. I guess I will give you guys my pokertracker numbers now...

1100s...4 played for $325 profit and 7.39% roi
555s...31 played for $1695 prfofit and 8.85% roi
335s...71 played for $3431 profit and 14.43% roi
225s...207 played for $108 profit and 0.23% toi
114s...191 played for -$3441 and -15.8% roi

Total profit of $2118 and 1.86% roi...

All in all, its pretty bad. Im most likely going to cut out $114s all together tomorrow, as I get pwnd hard in them. I guess ill let you know how it goes.

pretty bad day

Prettymuch everything went wrong today. There isnt much else to say about it. I have been mixing in 555s and 335s in addition to the 225s and 114s. I am going to probably cut out the $114s all together and just go for bustoville. I ended up losing a nice $4000 today. Im so good. I guess im going to start loading up my neteller in preparation for the worst. It seems like every time I actually "need" to win, I dont. Like when I first bought my condo, I went on a 3 month breakeven streak. It was awful. Now that I cashed out everything, im obviously not going to win again. It seems pretty typical. I also cant get pokertracker to put inlike 200 of the first sngs I played on stars, so I guess ill just let it give ugly horrible results that say I have -9% roi. Hopefully I wont lose every hand I play tomorrow.

long work day

Well...it was a pretty long day and I didnt make any money, so I guess the day wasnt all that nice. I started off the day getting down a quick 5k and had 2k worth of games going, so I had like $41 left in my account...I had my rakeback guy send me $8000 that he owed me so I could keep loading up the games. I kept playing and finally got back to +$300 for the day. Apparently im not keeping the results very well. I could do party results fine 12 tabling when it told me what place I took in every tourney, but pokerstars doesnt do that...When did the math for today, my hand recorded results said I was up like $200 when I was really up $319 and when I did the results from the 3 days in vegas, it had me down like $800 when I was really up $1200...so I guess I am going to be forced to use pokertracker to keep track for me. right now it is importing 283 files, which im guessing will take it a pretty long time.

Dave, one of my friends that I roomed with in Lake Tahoe and Vegas IMed me today and told me he was planning on going to biloxi to play their tournies, which are going to be going on starting in like 4 days and ending on the 28th, so I decided ill go play them. Actually, I talked to the guy that I guess you could call my live poker teacher and he suggested I play in as many smaller live mtts as I could, as he says I have problems with my mid and late level play and you get to those levels faster in smaller buyin tournies. So...im planning on going to Biloxi in maybe a week or so and playing their tournies til the 28th then im going to head to new orleans for the voodoo music festival for a day or two, then im strongly considering flying out to foxwoods to hang out with the teacher and try to learn to beat mtts. I guess I am just looking for a backup plan just in case online poker goes down. Ok...pokertracker is still importing so I guess im just going to post the results tomorrow.

finally home...

Today was crazy. I stayed up all night last night because I had to get on a plane at 8 am. I got on my plane and went to sleep. I woke up around 3 pm being told we were about to land in some small town in Texas...not Houston. Apparently it was really bad weather there. We sat at that small airport for 4 hours waiting to get gas so we could go back to Houston. Once we got there, I eventually found out that all the flights to Pensacola had been cancelled. Typical. I used my brain and got on a flight to Mobile Alabama, which is about a 45 minute drive Pensacola. I got together with 2 other guys who also did the same thing that I did. We eventually got in the air around 10:00 pm. We eventually landed and we drove home. Yay....im FINALLY home!

Ok...I have figured out my plan for the next 9 months. Right now, I have around $7,000 on pokerstars....I plan to play around 3000 $114s and $225s for the next 3 months. Hopefully I can make $10/game and bring in a nice $30,000 per month. After that, I am probably going to start adding in the $555s and $1100s. I will play it by ear from there but plan on getting in at least 3000 games per month. I think I can 18 table pretty well, which will let me get in 25 games per hour or so. I see no reason why I shouldnt be able to put in 4 hours per day. Hopefully it will go well...

I think I lost one of my result sheets from the last week or so of party sngs...I made a nice $5,000 total but I dont know the exact results. I also lost $2,000 last night from sngs on stars. I guess ill just start posting stars numbers tomorrow. Right now, im listening to the circut radio show, which can be found at www.cardplayer.com. My good friend Shannon Shorr is going to be on there, so check it out if you feel like it. He starts walking about 33 minutes into it. I guess I am going to finish listening to this and then go to sleep.

going home

Well, I busted in 50thish in todays super sat. Top 26 got a seat...I had about 20,000 chips (30,000 = top 10%) and got AK against K9, AT against A8, KJ against 65 and 55 against AQ...all lost, so I lost. I am kinda glad I lost because I despise this town and live poker with all my heart. I hope I am never ignorant enough again to think that I could actually do well in a mtt. I am obviously a huge loser in the game, so I suppose its time to accept that to myself and give it up.

I was thinking about how much time and ev I wasted coming to these live mtts. Im sure I could have made at least $50,000 on party playing sngs if I didnt come off and waste time playing these things. For the next 270 days (or until internet poker gets totally banned) I am going to play hardcore on stars and try my hardest to not take time out for things that make little to no sense. So basically, im going to work hardcore for the next 9 months and hope for the best. Ive done it before, but for a year, so 9 months should be no problem.

Im flying home at 8:15 tomorrow morning. I think I am going to find some food then get to work.

pretty crappy day

Well, I lost the live mtt today, like normal. I am like 0-10 right now which pretty much means I am done for a long long time unless the next 2 go super well. I came back to the hotel and won $3000 in sngs...then I took a break and watched a movie...I came back and decided to run horrible over 10 games (because thats all that would load) so I gave back $1000 of it. I am also noticing that the "good" stars players are actually pretty horrible. They pretty much all have huge huge flaws. There are also total idiots like on party, so im thinking playing on stars wont be so bad. Im going to play the super sat tomorrow then probably come home if I do bad. I might stay one more night just so I can make sure im not flying during prime time, as I like to make sure I can get in 20ish games at a time.

I think everything is going to be alright.

Well, I put in a short little session on stars today, getting in basically every $225 and $114 speed sng that ran for a few hours. I got in 79 games for $1200ish profit. I cant see the chip stacks when I 12 table on my laptop like I can on party, so I was forced to play them cascaded, which I hated before today. I like how the most recent active table pops up on stars...kinda like the old multi table helper program on party. Anyways, 12 games just doesnt feel like nearly enough when you have 30 seconds to act, so I ended up playing between 18 and 26 at a time for most of the session. Curtains actually IMed me when I was around 26 because apparently when I went to the restroom I went "away" on a few tables and was blinding off...How nice of him. Anyways, im looking foreward to spending lots of stars points. I figured out that I can get a 50" plasma tv for every 600 $225s I play. Also, if I play like 35 $555s per day, which I plan on doing once I get some money in my stars account, I can get a $100,000 ashton martin after a year of playing. Its basically the same as rakeback on party but you are forced to spend it...so instead of paying my bills with rakeback and my poker winnings on random stuff, ill spend my poker winnings on bills and rakeback on random stuff. All in all, I think everything will be fine.

Today I played a $1000 super sat at rhe bellagio. There were only 5 people at my opening table so I was stealing the blinds from the dead stacks. I raised about 5 out of the first 7 hands when I got QQ. I raised, some guy reraised to 450 (out of 3000 stack) I push and he instacalls with AQ like its the nuts. He flops and A and I lose. Yay. I am done with live poker for a long long time if I dont get itm in these next 2 events and even then, im going to have to cash for a significant amount in the main event to make me even consider playing anymore. PRetty much, I hate them and I am bad at them.

The party is ending

Well...at 10 am tomorrow, party is most likely going to shut their doors to US citizens thanks to our wonderful government. I somehow managed to win a nice $4000 in sngs today even though I didnt play all that much. I think im like +$3000 over like 200 games over the last week or so since ive been in vegas, which is kinda crappy. I guess I shouldnt expect much because I havent played. I'll give full results when I get back home. I am probably going to be moving all my play to stars. I am not sure if I am going to play the cash games or sngs yet, as they sngs may be filled with all the party regulars, which isnt good. On party, I couldnt play with about 5 or 6 people because ive played on their computers, or that have played on mine, in the past...Stars doesnt have that same policy, so I fear the games may be clogged with fairly decent players. I guess ill just see how it goes and play accordingly. Tomorrow I am going to play a $1000 sat...and then another one on the next day then another on the next day. If I 0-x them, ill go home on the 15th or 16th but if I somehow win a seat into the main event, I'll probably be here til the 20th. Im going to see Mystere (again) with Shannon and his girlfriend tonight, so that should be fun. Hopefully tomorrow will go nicely.

.........

I figured id let everyone know that I am very discouraged with poker. I figured I could still pwn sngs but obviously I cant. I had a nice +5k day yesterday but lost basically every game I played today for a nice -6k. I am obivously no longer a winning player. I think ive decided to try to busto myself and just stay out here for at least until the super sats are done. If I happen to win my way into the main event, I will play it, otherwise im going to go home and probably never play a live poker tournament again, as it is very similar to being tortured over and over again. Right now I pretty much hate life. Im going to put about 5k on Ortiz tonight...im sure he will get pwned now that im going to bet fairly big on it.

hmmmm

Well, nothing is going right here. I havent played much at all in the last few days...actually, I think I skipped the last 2 mtts although I did play todays $2500, which I lost, like normal. I am starting to accept the fact that maybe I dont run bad...maybe I just am bad. From what I understand, people can run bad for forever, but it usually doesnt happen. I fail to believe that god could let me run bad for this long, so the only answer is that i am horrible. That being said, I have no clue what I am going to do. I have like $3000 left here, which is enough to either play the 3k tomorrow, or 3 1k sats over the next few days to try to get in the main event. I am supposed to go back home to go on a cruise with my family though. I would normally just play the $3000 event, lose it, then go home, but I have met a very nice girl here that I really like a lot. We went out on a nice little days last night, which was fantastic. So....now I am rather torn between going back home or trying one last time to make a mil before I decide live tournaments just arent for me. Honestly, if I lose whatever I do here, I am done for a long long time. Im talking like I wont play a nother live mtt until I have at least a mil roll, which probably isnt going to happen any time soon because party is shutting down. All in all, I have a few fairly important decisions to make in the next few hours and right now. I usually know what the right play in life is, but right now I dont. I am very conflicted.

im rather sad

I seem to no longer be able to win at live poker....then again, I dont know if I ever could. Today I actually doubled up about 2 hours into the $5000 event but then got QQ against a semislowplayed KK on a low board, so I lost. I think im just going to skip the $1500 event tomorrow and play online. I imagine playing on party now is similar to knowing you have a terminal illness and you will be dead in 2 weeks...party is going to be dead to me in about a week, so I really do need to get in all the sngs I can. I am very very disappointed with myself right now. My goal with online poker was to make enough to retire. As soon as I figured out our horrible country was going to try to kill online poker, I started learning cash games, as I figured that skill would transfer to live poker, as sngs are basically nonexisistent. Ive learned on this trip that I really despise live poker...maybe I dont hate live poker...maybe I just hate losing. I dont know if I have won anything significant in the last month, which makes me sad. I guess my only real options now are to go back home and learn real estate stuff, become a $55 sng grinder on the smaller sites, so travel the circut and hope for a big score. Im thinking the smartest move right now is going to be to give up on poker for the time being, as it simply isnt going to be that profitable. This really bothers me though because I know that I didnt do everything I could to get as much money out of the online game that I could. Its nice to know that I failed the one goal I set for myself. Im so bad at everything.

he tricked me!

Well...I lost the $2600 tourney today in about 1.5 hours. Things were going nicely for the first hour. I got up to 8000 chips (we started with 5000) when I got QQ all in against a shortish guys TT...I lost. Back down to 5000. I then got KK in 2nd position. A guy in 1st made it 500 in 50/100. This guy has been pretty tight so far but he has made a huge push with KK preflop over a normal raise and like 4 callers in 25/50. Anyways, I take the 600 bet to mean JJ or TT usually...so I made it 1600 and he thought for about 5 seconds then pushed for like 6k total. This really sucks because even though I think im ahead, I dont know if he does this with JJ or TT. I sigh and call and lose to his AA. Its 1:30 here and I have no clue what to do. I went to the poker room at bellagio and the games are infested by fairly decent looking players. I guess im going to chill around the room and maybe gambooool $1000 away. Adam Guyer and Shannon Shorr are comming in tonight so maybe we can do something fun.

pretty blah day

The tourney went crappy today. We started with 4k chips and I was up to 8k after the first hour because everyone at my table was horrible. I didnt get any cards for 4 more hours, so I got back down to 4k or so. My table was really crappy then, as I had 4 LAG maniacs to my left and 4 nits to my right...so every time I tried to steal id get called and i rarely got to 3bet someone preflop. I eventually got AA and pushed and some guy made a great call with A4, so I lost. Ive come to the conclusion that I am horrible at poker. Hopefully ill figure out how to win by tomorrow. I made $1000 playing blackjack, which is basically ireelevant. Im probably going to sit here and cry about losing my job. Hopefully tomorrow will be kind.

random thoughts

I still dont know what im going to do with my life. After playing cash games today for 4 hours, I know without a doubt that I despise live poker with all my heart, which in turn makes me despise my life. I lost the $1500 tournament fairly quickly as I was card dead, had AA lose twice and and then had 12bbs in the sb, I made it 3.5 bbs to go, the bb called, the flop was AJ7, I pushes, the bb instacalls with 33...gg me. After that, I played 10/20 nl for 4.5 hours and made $1200. I pretty much played very abc. It was probably the most boring time in my life. I hate it with a passion. I then came back to the hotel and played 14 sngs before I couldnt play with some people, which put me in crazy tilt. It also didnt help that I was running horrible. Im pretty much tired of my life. Maybe I should become a rock star or something...

I got to laugh a lot playing live poker today. I do love watching these total idiots act all smug when they pull off an obvious bluff. They must they are awesome or something. I did watch a guy have 77 on a A73 board, get all in and lose to A3...about 10 hands later he had 88 on a AJ8 board and lost to AJ. Im glad to see that there people who run as bad as me...then again, I probably run worse than all of them. My bad luck rubbing off on everyone else, considering we are all losing out poker playing jobs. sorry for the bad beat guys. Its 8:50 right now and I cant play sngs...so I am either going to sit here and watch a movie or play diablo all night like the huge loser I am.

what now?

If you havent heard already, Party, Stars and Pacific have decided to not let US citizens play on their sites as soon as the president signs the new law....so...what am I going to do? Right now, I have no clue. Im going to cash out most of my accounts down to the very minimum to support playing $215s for the next few days. I guess I am going to stay here in Vegas for the next 2 weeks like I planned and hopefully do well in these tournaments. I might do well now that I HAVE to win. Before, live poker was sorta like gambooling. Now it is actually important. After that, assuming I cant play online anymore, I guess I am going to either give live play a shot for a few months or so and then if that fails, go back to college. I might do some sort of stock brooker school thing, as I hear its similar to poker. I honestly dont know what I am going to do. For the first time in my life, I am totally clueless. I guess, like always, I will figure something out soon.